Surrendering to the visual candy in my life is what I do each day. I could surrender to the darkness out there, at times I do. My art gets me back on track, my studio is flooded with light, light that dances across models and still-lifes of peaches, flowers and blue glass jars. I'm most at peace when I'm working with people, learning new things outside the world of art I live in. There is too much darkness in the world, hearts need light to grow and the arts can give people that light. I have to shut my eyes every so often and bring Gene Kelley dancing in the rain to mind or a scene from "To Kill a Mocking Bird" to block out the darkness in the world.
My studio is my sanctuary, where my inner being brings my dream world out to be shared with others. Rays of light penetrate my mind as they weave inspiration through the leaves and blossoms of the plants lining the west facing windowsill of my studio providing a background for the people I wish to paint. A ballet begins every afternoon in my studio. Pale skin models act as the stage for the light show. Trees join with a summer breeze outside my window choreographing the ballet of light on models who join me in lifting people to see the light in the world. I cannot always hold to the rules of painting good composition, good design and color harmony. The feast in my studio causes me to toss the diet aside as I add colors to models and plants alike not leaving anything out. Chaos is good at times, to release feelings pent up inside. Too many times I restrain ideas and feeling to keep with rules of good art. Like a jam session of free wheeling jazz artist, my notes are my colors and brush work set free. Every part of my body is invited to join the party.

The sun rises pulling long shadows back from across lawns and black top streets. Women still in housecoats stand in driveways , coffee in hand, about to pick up newspapers laying at their feet, still in protectives bags. Watching me as I pass, a stranger to them - but I know all of them, in my mind they are all friends. Passing through each morning the same people inspired me to wonder who they really are.
   I give each a story, a life to suit my image of my little town. I continue on pass their picture perfect houses, taking in their lush green lawns, gardens, perfect and filled with blooms showing an array of colors that challenged my palette each time I tell their story. Picket fences, a tiny sandstone church with a bright red door all beckon me to stop and set up my french easel.
   A wash line drying clothes means someone got an early start. A well dressed man nods to me as I come to a stop at my favorite corner, Jackson and Main, all four corners present possible masterpieces for any artist. I always take the side streets through this little town of mine to feel part of it for a moment. It's my Mayberry.
   Tempting as my Mayberry is I continue on, getting back to the main state highway that follows the Fox River through the valley dividing every town into it's east sides and west sides. Just north of my little town is Fabyan Park once a private estate, now a park, my real destination. Every morning for six years I've spent my mornings sitting in my car sketching the people at Fabyan Park pedaling the bike path or standing on the banks of the river watching their bobbers fishermen line the banks of the river at Fabyan Park. Lovers laying on blankets under the oak trees catch my eye, giving me subjects for my first sketches of the day. Their moment, and my sketching of them, comes to an end when the first van load of kids arrive from the local day care center.
   Streaming from the vans kids of every shape fan out to every corner of the park, councilors scramble to get some sort of order going. A dozen are running wild from a sugar high others are claiming picnic tables for their little members-only club. A few loners wait for signals from the councilors to find just what they should be doing. The loners are my first subjects for sketching, they usually hold still for a while. Loners tend to be boys. Five sketches tucked away I turn to the plotters, four girls who have a table staked out who whisper and become quiet when someone gets too close. I sketch the leader first with a few lines, leaving her to form the second girl. Another line drifts off to form the third girl. Three of the girls have become a single figure in my sketch. Only the back of the fourth girl's head and arm will make it into the drawing. Each one will change their position a bit, but they pretty much keep to the original pose.
One of the loners is seeking comfort from one of the councilors. He is crying, hugging her, pressing his face against her. This is a possible painting so I shift into serious high gear which really means I both slow things down and speed up. Make every line count and position perfect. My body tenses up as the drawing progresses. Once or twice a week I see something that will make for a good small painting. This is why I drive through the side streets of my Mayberry.

A Free-wheeling Jam Session of Light

I Know Them All