In The Studio

  Selling a painting involves letting go. For me, letting go of a painting involves trading a piece of me for the ability to continue to create more paintings. In the studio, I get in touch with myself more deeply than anywhere else. Painting in the studio is about who I am as a person. How I see in the studio is different than how I see when out on-the-spot painting. Outside I allow the landscape to dictate how my paintings need to be, while in the studio, I listen to my paintings as they speak to me. In the studio, my soul has a voice in how the painting grows. 

 

          For me, art is more than a way of making a living. For real artists, what we do is more than simply painting a picture. Sounds a bit elitist, but there are those who need to paint and then those who find painting a simple way of making a living. I cannot say who is a real artist or who is simply painting because they can. There are times when I see paintings that reveal the hand which painted them. Boring brush work reveals a hand that had no real connection to a subject. There are other telltale signs of the difference in paintings by an artist and those simply painting for the money. 

          I, for one, find it difficult to let go of some paintings. I give my all to each and every painting. A few, mostly those done in the studio, involving subjects close to my heart are hard to let go of, though not always my best works. Sometimes my best works are done without my soul getting involved. Those are easy to let go of. Then there are also those that mean a lot to me, I'd find it difficult to let go of, and are less desirable to buyers and collectors. Sometimes working in the studio is quite difficult with all the decisions I need to make. What to paint, what size to paint, what colors to use, who to hire and will they be reliable? While I find going out to paint simpler, while others find it hard work. 

All My Paintings Have Stories

    Been thinking a lot about my garden these days. Zinnias, daylilies, and my roses are on my list of flowers I hope to have for painting. Been turning more of the garden over to flowers, not just for subjects to paint but for the visitors I enjoy. Butterflies, bees, and a variety of birds are the visitors my mother always planted for. A red sunflower always brought a menagerie of bees and butterflies. Setting up my easel in my backyard always brings me rewards, not always good paintings, but simple joys seeing nature at work. Sometimes mixed feelings, though, when I see a baby rabbit appear then promptly cut off the tulip blossom I had plans for... 

          Though I love seeing my garden in full bloom and do do some painting out among the lilacs and daffodils, my real reward comes when I take my flowers into my studio where I work them into my still-life compositions which I so enjoy. It's their color and shapes I love working with, arranging them in such a way as to create interesting shapes that demand drawing and a sense of design. In the studio I can add the background that will provide a sense of place and mystery. When seeing one of my still-life paintings people will wonder just where is my studio? A silhouette of a city may be the setting for a bouquet of rover mums while another will have a weathered barn adding to the mystery. I love the rich dark backgrounds many artists use for their set-ups, but for me, I like a bit more of a story for my still-life paintings. The idea of my paintings containing stories is my way of keeping interest in each of my works. All my paintings have stories. Friends give me potted plants and cut flowers, which carry stories of those who gifted them to me for my studio window. Anne, who is a master gardener, has allowed me into her garden to paint models among her creation of ponds, blue bottles, and her array of blooms. In the studio I'll recall what she told me about the flowers she sent home with me and I will relive my visits with Anne.