Who Else Might Be Wandering These Woods?

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Warm sun, bitter cold wind, stiff white paint, and coffee warming my hands to enable me to place that one black branch that first captured my imagination. Reaching out, like a hand beckoning me to come closer. Fingers of dried twisted leaves move with the cold wind sending a bitter chill through me. Who else might be wandering these woods? Ghosts of past farmers whisper to me as I struggle to mix the colors on my palette.

Shadows of passing clouds play with my mind as colors come and go. The old oak with it's tattered coat of bark shows scars from a hundred winters. A burl grows just under its first limb hiding an inner beauty for a different kind of artist to find. My branch sways with a gust of wind, drawing me back to the task I have set for myself.

A second concept beings growing in my head as I become part of the landscape around me. I feel the ground beneath my feet as if roots were reaching out anchoring me in place, bringing me closer to the life around me. No squirrels, no birds, just trees and yellow ochre grass - yet I feel life around me. A squirrel might be peeking down from it's nest of dried leaves high in the branches of this sturdy giant. A dozen such nests in surrounding trees may be holding an audience of inquisitive creatures. In the distance a lone figure has started a fire. Blue smoke drifts through the trees and thoughts of my boy scout days drift through my head... 

My painting takes on new memories and new meanings as I near completing my task. The bitter cold is gone from my head, but remains in my fingers and feet as I place the finishing touches to my painting. A new me filled with new ideas, fresh ideas, places my prize on the passenger seat. Scraping my palette clean, I glance back at my new friend and promise to return in the Spring. 

Colors Laid Out...

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Colors laid out. Brushes ready. The model's stand arranged the way I need it for the painting in mind. The weather, perfect.  Sunlight will be dancing through the trees outside my studio and the geraniums on my windowsill, landing on the pale skin of my model in the late afternoon. I see the colors in my mind - the pale grey color of the models skin where the shadows dance and the warm pale peach colors of the skin lit by the sun. I am ahead of myself though. Just preparing for the rush I get when the model takes the pose. The painting is so clear in my head, my heart beats a bit stronger. I check everything for the tenth time. It's the way it is with me.

Fifty years and nothing is any different, if any thing it's more nerve racking. Even when I am using models I've worked with for years. Maybe using models I have work with for years is so nerve racking because they know what I am capable of and failing them would be so much harder to explain, and to deal with. I never have to explain myself to a still-life or landscape. Failing with a nude after doing so many is very scary. 

What goes through my head doing a nude is so different from what people think goes through an artists head. The ladies who pose for me are beautiful and I love looking at them, but my goal of creating a work of art kicks in as soon as the model is in the pose. How to translate the beauty before to my canvas is the challenge and the fun. How to do it in my style, with my sense of color? How to make the viewer respect the model as I do while painting them? I am challenged with inviting viewers into my studio to see and feel what I am seeing and feeling. Challenged with creating a work of art from the nude that a parent can share with their children. Some day Jordan will say to Josephine, "That's me," looking at a painting of mine. I hope all my models experience such a moment.