Swallowing Marbles

Quietly I turned the attic doorknob. Mom called from the kitchen asking what I was doing. "Nothing," I answered, pushing open the door. Mom was frying eggs for a Chinaman who had come to the back door asking for food. Why she didn't give him the green beans I don't know. “People are starving in China,” she or dad would tell us while making us eat our green beans. So this man had to be a Chinaman to have come to our house in need of food. Careful not to step on creaking boards, I made my way to the back attic window. Turning the brass latch, I opened the window and waited to see where this Chinaman would go. I wanted to know which direction from High Street, China was.

“What are you doing?” Mom standing in the attic doorway, she knew the steps that creaked too? “Close that window and come downstairs.” The Chinaman had taken an egg sandwich and a couple eggs with him. I raced to the front door to watch where he went. China was across High Street, just like I had guessed.

Later that day Dad came home for his early dinner before heading to his second job. Dad worked two jobs to be sure us kids could go to college. They talked about mom feeding hobos, with dad saying some of the hobos could be dangerous. I was disappointed that wasn't a Chinaman who had come to the backdoor, but still mom could have given him some green beans.

Mr. Koos, our next door neighbor, had kept an eye on the hobo while mom fried the eggs. Mr. Koos had seen me leaning out the attic window, while sitting there keeping an eye on the hobo. Neighbors kept an eye out for each other when I was a kid, mostly to warn when the rain was coming on Mondays, or when the big incinerator was burning garbage. The city's incinerator filled the neighborhood with stinky smoke, making everyone's wash smell.

There was nothing I could do that Mom and Dad would not know about before I got home, thanks to a neighbor. Mrs. Martin would inform Mom I was in her yard drawing. Mrs. Miller called Mom once that I was in her yard drawing and was bringing home a white snake. Most neighbors were friendly, not so with Patty Matthew though, who sunbathed while listening to a portable radio. Her uncle lived in a small apartment above her parents. Her uncle, Ray, was nice. He had been hit in the head by a baseball when he was nine and it caused him to stutter. He was another grown up that kept an eye on us, though he was more like a kid too.

I had my own speech problem. I was known as the one that doesn't talk. It was easier for me to sit and draw than talk to people. At the end of summer I'd be starting school, mom and dad decided I had to go to the “banana lady,” as I called her. She was supposed to be a speech therapist but all she did was stuff my mouth with bananas and make me say different words. Couple times I had to talk with marbles in my mouth. Dad waited in Grandpa's car, which he borrowed to take me to the banana lady. Sitting in Grandpa's car, he read or did crosswords while I swallowed marbles and spit out bananas. I started first grade still not being able to speak clearly. My brothers and sisters could understand me, why Sister Claire had a problem, I don't know. She was always telling me where to put my tongue. The girls in school decided I had cooties because of my speech. I hated school, but then I got my first art lesson from Sister Claire. Only on Fridays did she teach art. Had no idea I would grow up to be an artist. First grade was the only grade I had art lessons. Those lessons must have stuck, even though there were no more art lessons till art school, I kept my head down and drew portraits through grade school. English book open or my math book open, I just drew.



Summer Sundays

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Summer Sundays began with the walk to church for 9:00am Mass . Mom had us decked out in our best. My brothers and I in fine sport jackets, clip on bowties and I had my Frank Sinatra hat. I loved that hat. My sisters in dresses mom made. Mom made all their dresses and her own as well. She was a whizz at sewing. At church mom and my sister Pat went to the choir loft. My little sister, two older brothers, and I went with dad to the 3rd or 4th pew where I couldn’t see anything due to being too little. The mass was in Latin, so besides not being able to see anything I couldn't understand anything either. Instead I took in the beauty of the church with the statues of the Blessed Virgin and the carving of the stations of the cross. Even then it was the colors of the different carvings and the pictures decorating the old church that I liked seeing. As the priest read us his sermon I looked at the carvings of the beams and supports overhead.

After mass, dad gave me a couple dollars for sweet rolls at Shobe’s store just across from church. Shobe’s was a tiny store barely big enough for a couple adults to move around. I picked out the requested danish and long john rolls, handed Mr. Shobe the two dollars and asked if there was enough for a bag of marbles. With a grin Mr. Shobe handed me a bag of marbles. “Always enough,” said that grin of his. Dad never asked for change, seeing the marbles in my hand. I raced to catch up with mom and dad who chatted with neighbors on their way home. Francis, Annie, Mike and Cathy were home by the time I caught up with mom and dad. They were setting the breakfast table, just waiting for us now. Neighborhood news caught up on, Mom and Dad sent me ahead.

After sitting at the kitchen table nibbling on my danish and telling my dad what I had done during the week, I waited for my brothers and sisters to tell dad what they had done. Working two jobs, dad didn't have much time during the week to catch up on everything. Sunday breakfast was different. Dad liked sitting at the table hearing everything we did - from inspecting my drawings to hearing the names of my little sisters' dolls . I had to explain one of my drawings wasn't Mrs. Martin, but rather of St. Joseph, done during the week when the entire school had attended church. Only then, during those mornings at before-school masses, could I see those statues on the North side of church. Dad talked to me about paying attention in church. My second grade Nun had already caught me drawing in church. She had explained things with a slap to the head and moved me to the pew directly in front of her where she could swat me, which she did even when I wasn't drawing. I was sure she was a mind reader. Just looking over at Janie Swarthz got me a good one to the back of my head.

With breakfast finished, we changed out of our Sunday best. Dishes done, we piled into Gram’s car for our Sunday road trip. Some days Dad just took us sightseeing. Other days, to a relative's house for a visit. Uncle Paul's and Aunt Coreen’s meant we'd see Uncle Paul's trains. Then it was on to Uncle Melvin's dairy farm where we ran from the car to the farm yard. Pulling ears of corn from the corn crib, we fed the chickens, ducks and a mean goose. Sheep and goats just stood watching us. Sometimes the goats would charge us and we'd duck into the hen house where we were held captive until cousin Maryann saved us.

When either my older brother or sister were done visiting in the house, all us kids climbed the pasture gate and headed to the creek. The cool clear water was the best. Just standing in the clear water seeing tiny fish swimming around our white feet was a treat. Cousin Maryann, with her rolled-up jeans, led us exploring down the creek to a fence we had to duck under. She led us to an old maple syrup house for more exploring. There had once been another farm here but only the syrup house remained. Dozens of wood buckets stood staked and rotting. A metal tub, covered in moss, was now home to mice and other creatures of the woods. Ten minutes of looking around, and then back to the creek we went. We collected pretty stones along the way to take home, forgetting them in the car for Gramps to wonder how stones got there.

The cows would be lining up for the afternoon milking, or maybe just heading to the barn for a break from the summer sun. Butterflies, by the hundreds, lined the muddy banks. Maryann said butterflies liked the cow's urine. That bit of information stopped us from proceeding any further. Until it was time to go, we splashed around, trying to stay cool. Mom and Aunt Elizabeth would come to watch us kids for a while, while dad tinkered with a tractor. Dad was great at fixing motors. That was his thing. He never came home from the junkyard without an old motor. All those summer days are re-lived in my studio now.